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So as you may know, I only just found out that one of my friends on this site, Pauly-Kun, who went offline several months ago for her own reasons, passed away a few months ago. I found out about it from a comment on one of my other friends journals, and when I went to check and see to make sure I wasn't misinterpreting something I found out that it was indeed true. I went to cry it out a bit after finding out, and this has got me thinking about something that occasionally pops up from time to time, sometimes out of nowhere, other times when certain events happen. Certain events like the sister of one of my best friends and one of my dogs passing away last year, or the mother of one of my co-workers passing away not long ago. 

To give a bit of context to my way of thinking, I identify as a nihilist; someone who believes that the universe and reality has no intrinsic meaning or value, and that the true nature of it is a series of random events. Not necessarily in the sense that I think that things like the afterlife or Gods couldn't ever exist, or that people are wrong for believing in those things, but that I just can't ever confirm it for myself so I don't let it heavily influence how I live my life now. Nor in the sense that because the universe has no inherent meaning or value that life is meaningless; meaning is something that only sentient creatures can apply to something, and just because it may not be 'the' meaning, doesn't make it any less valuable. Even if our perceptions on reality are based solely on chemical reactions in our brains, does that make it less meaningful? I don't think so. I'm actually more optimistic than pessimistic about life and I think it's absolutely worth it to keep living, but once again I feel that the nature of the universe is inherently chaotic and anything can happen in an instant with little warning; including death. 

Death is absolutely something people don't like to think about happening to them, nor is it something they generally think about because it seems unlikely, and it does tend to be that way. But ultimately, humans and all other lifeforms can die, and it's not possible to completely remove any possibility of death before the end of a life expectancy, just reduce the chances to a degree. Death isn't something I necessarily like to think about myself; I think I've already mentioned this before and some people may have noticed, but whenever famous people pass away like Robin Williams, David Bowie or Carrie Fisher, I tend to not really say anything about it. I find it just as heartbreaking, but I don't really know what to say that hasn't already been said. In general I try to keep my life as positive as I can, I don't want to let negativity drag me down again like it's done in the past. But I think it's time I did address this now, since this is probably the saddest moment I've experienced all year. 

The one thing I'm most afraid of when it comes to the internet, in particular following other people on social media and making friends, is the very real possibility that they may pass away and I never find out about it. Plenty of people I've followed before have seemingly disappeared from the internet, and most of the time I can't tell if they simply left or they just died. That kind of fear also includes my own possible and untimely death. 

After my older brother committed suicide, I've come to have a very good understanding of what it's like to experience someone close to you, a loved one, pass away. That kind of feeling is one of the hardest things to go through, and along with them not being there anymore it's the a huge reason as to why I never like thinking about the people I know whether in real life or online dying. I also don't like to think about how my own death would affect other people; among many other things I'm the last remaining son of mother, and to make her and many other people so devastated by me dying absolutely terrifies me. 

This all comes to the main point of my journal, and that's to discuss the event of what would actually happen if by some universal chaos I ended up dead. Apart from all the people in real life affected, I've also been thinking about how it would affect people online that know me, because over the years on this site I've definitely made some good friends and acquaintances. More specifically, the issue of them even knowing that I've passed away in the first place. 

I'm not sure many people actually know my real name because I don't have it shown on my profile and it's only mentioned in some of my journals, and that's mainly because I don't want it linked to what I actually do online. There isn't a single person in real life that actually knows what I do on here, and that mainly comes from embarrassment and trying to explain something and why I do these things. There's also the fact that there are plenty of people that I follow that I wouldn't want people to know I do, or I end up being seen as a pervert. Some of those people focus on kinks that I don't have any interest in, but I still follow because whether it be out of respect or courtesy I find it hard to unfollow people for some reason; usually I end up following someone after seeing just one thing that I liked, look at their gallery to see the general quality and make sure they don't have shit-ass beliefs like being transphobic or something, then follow. I tend to only unfollow someone when something they do just really rubs me the wrong way or it's a series of small things that build up to it, but this is going way off topic. The point is, I try to keep my real life and my online life, particularly on DeviantArt, as separate as possible. 

While this does reduce the chance that someone I know in real life looking at all my fanfic nonsense, it also runs the risk of making it near impossible for anyone online to know what's happened to me if something has happened. I imagine that people who do know me on here know me as someone that uploads very infrequently, in fact I've literally not posted any actual works at all this year so far. The idea that what's happened to me is uncertain and ambiguous feels horrible, and if for whatever reason I do meet an untimely demise, I feel like all the people who do know and care about me online deserve to know. That's why I'm sucking up my pride and posting my Facebook account link and email account on this site, and making my real name more visible. Sure it may not seem like a big deal, since I'm not linking my DA or Tumblr account or anything on Facebook and it's highly unlikely that someone will google search my name, let alone on DeviantArt, but I get anxious pretty easily over things that may embarrass me. 

If there's no activity from me, whether it be posting works, journals or status updates or just commenting on something, in a month or two with no prior reason given as to why I wouldn't be active here, then you may want to check my Facebook account as there would likely be someone I know there mentioning something happening to me if something does happen. If it turns out I am really gone, then I would appreciate it if whoever found out would make it public on here what's happened. I'll be putting links to my Facebook and email accounts at the end of this journal, on my account and on my comments so they can be found easily, and once again I'm making my name more visible and if there's anything else I can think of that could help for this kind of situation then I'll put it in later (suggestions are also appreciated). 

Thank you to anyone who has read to the end of this journal; I know it's incredibly wordy and goes off-topic, but I've said before, life is uncertain. There may not be another chance where I can say stuff like this. Take care everybody. 


On Facebook I go by Kane Latcham, you'll know it's me on my about page when it says I study at Curtin University and live in Perth, Western Australia. The url is facebook.com/Kane.Latcham

My email account is kane.latcham@hotmail.com 
  • Listening to: Eurobeat Brony Ost
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Jerma
  • Playing: Guilty Gear Xrd Rev 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola


Without any extra context, I can agree with most of what Mark is saying; basic respect is something everyone should have for everyone else. However, there is one thing that I feel should be said, and it does relate to the recent Pewdiepie controversy. I will give him the benefit of the doubt and believe him when he says that Felix isn't antisemitic or supportive of antisemitism; Pewdiepie was following a (garbage) trend of humour of railing on oppressed groups, not because he actually believes they are sub-human, but because the joke is controversial or 'out-there' enough to not be taken seriously and has been done before many times, usually without so much consequence themselves (see South Park). I don't think what he believes or why he made those jokes is relevant though, because he had no excuse to make those jokes in the first place. Joking about wiping out a certain race or using slurs as a joke isn't harmless; making that an accepted part of humour ends up normalizing it, and in doing so normalizing discrimination. It's something that people shouldn't do, no matter what reason, and as Felix found out, there are consequences to those kinds of actions. Consequences I believe he should accept; when someone does something wrong, I believe they should get appropriate consequences, acknowledge what they did and that it was wrong, and give a sincere apology and a promise to not do it again (that they keep). 

If Felix has indeed done those things, then okay; I don't care enough about him to see whether or not things look up for him. Humans make mistakes and aren't perfect, and I can say now that I used to be absolutely atrocious in many ways. What my issue is with this video is that Mark asks us to respect each other and not treat each other as anything less than human, even if they do things that are explicitly wrong. Treating people as humans regardless and not going overboard is fine, but respect is something that can be lost, and in some cases rightfully so. Jewish people should not feel obligated to just forgive and have respect for Pewdiepie with how insensitive he was, even if he has apologized. Apologizing shows maturity and is admirable, but it doesn't change what you did, and doesn't entitle you to immediate forgiveness, or forgiveness at all if what you did was irreversibly harmful. Once again, I don't think people should go too far with how much they disrespect someone, but I think Mark is unreasonable to say (if it is what he's implying) that people, especially those at the butt end of Felix's jokes, should automatically forgive and go back to respecting him when he did something openly disrespectful himself. Taking the 'high road' should not mean letting people walk all over you and letting them get off scot-free for their wrongdoings. 

I'm a little disappointed that Mark, along with many people including others that I have plenty of respect for, would immediately go to defending Felix rather than tell him off for what he did. People can change, but they need reason to; and if a person is told that they didn't do anything wrong, then they don't feel obligated to change. With how much antisemitism and discrimination in general has been on the rise recently, you'll have to excuse me if I feel more for marginalized groups of people at the butt ends of shitty jokes than I do for a rich, screaming man with tons of people ready to defend him and attack anyone that speaks ill of him. 

That's not to say I like Markiplier any less after this. Mark has given me plenty of content that I very much enjoy, and between his voice ranging from near seductive to hilarious screaming in a less-grating way, having neat insights to game designs and certain concepts and not ever having to resort to jokes that are discriminatory of any kind, he is one of my favourite youtubers; also helps that he's the one that ended up getting me into Black Sabbath (only with Dio though, Osbourne has always sucked), which is now one of my favourite bands. I completely understand the reasons he made this response in the first place too; I think everyone has a natural instinct to defend the people they like, especially friends, when they're under fire for something they did. As this video has showed me, he's also a very idealistic kind of guy (perhaps to a fault, and that's coming from me), so it's clear why this topic means a lot to him even without his friend being involved. There are plenty of youtubers that I used to love the content of that have now recently just become awful and are people who's opinions I can't bring myself to respect; I won't attack them for it, but I have no reason to be respectful to them with the things they've said. And it makes me incredibly glad that even after this video, of which I don't entirely agree with, that I kind still see Mark as respectable as I have before. Once again, without the context of the recent controversy this is a pretty good video that's important to understand, I just have something to add that I feel is also important; people should not expect respect if they do something disrespectful, intentional or not. It's also important to understand the very significant difference between not respecting someone, and outright dehumanizing them. 

If you did read all of this, thank you. 
  • Listening to: Crash Bandicoot 2 Ost
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Adventure Time
  • Playing: Tomba!
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
If there's one thing I need to pay particular attention to in regards to SDP, it's about my main OC Serata. I need her to be there for story and gameplay purposes, and have her contribute to both and have likable aspects. That being said, she needs to have flaws that are shown as well, and not minor ones either. The one thing I'm afraid of is her ending up as a Mary-Sue or stealing the focus from the main heroes; she has development and focus too, but a lot of it is from reflection and her interactions with other characters. 

On that note, one of the biggest edits I'm gonna need to make to the draft is making her not appear in pretty much every cutscene before and after every stage. The original idea was to have her around to use magic whenever the characters need it, but I need to change that. Having her in so many cutscenes, especially when she doesn't even need to be there, does nothing to make her more likable or help the story. I'm gonna change it so that she can enchant the heroes to be able to use Fairy magic for a short amount of time, so she doesn't have to be there constantly. 

Partway through my writing I started getting worried because I found that I wrote too many characters complimenting her. Now these are nice characters that are grateful for what she can do and it's not like she doesn't deserve a nice thing or two said about her, but it doesn't have to be constant. Hopefully the new change to how magic works can help with that. 

One that thing that helped me reach this conclusion was when someone on Tumblr pointed out that one of the things Adventure Time does better than Steven Universe (which I don't even follow anymore) is putting emphasis on other characters besides the main protagonist and letting them develop or show how they go about their daily lives when not tied to the main character, and it helps world-building and relationship building as a result. The main heroes in SDP have their own story progression, while Serata is currently always present in all of them, and that's the kind of thing I'm talking about. 

I'm sorry if this is really boring or meaningless to anyone but it's important that I make this story the best as I can, and character portrayal is a huge part of that. 
  • Listening to: Crash Bandicoot 2 Ost
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Adventure Time
  • Playing: Tomba!
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
  • Listening to: Tekken 2 OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Cardcaptor Sakura
  • Playing: Shantae: Half-Genie Hero
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
Hey so remember how I proposed a timeline for SDP's story mode? I've decided not to go through with that as it would take WAY too long (took me at least over an hour for just the first four parts of like 85, and a lot of it was copy paste due to similar situations for characters) and thinking of what every single character is doing at any particular point in time isn't important enough to justify the time and tedious effort into working on it. 

Instead I'm just going to go by the story plan and make sure to look over it after it's done to make sure;

- It's consistent 
- There's no plot holes 
- Characters feel fairly represented in amount of appearance of scenes and significance to plot or character development 
- Relationships are developed at a reasonable pace 
- There's a plentiful and equal amount of moments that are either hilarious, tearjerking, horrifying, awesome and most importantly heartwarming 
- Exposition and worldbuilding are done in reasonable chunks and non-gameplay scenes don't drag on for way too long 
- The important dialogue in scenes is worded differently depending on the character but has the same meaning, while extra gags and jokes in those scenes differ completely so it doesn't feel repetitive to read when the story overlaps between characters 
- Nearly every character on the side of good is portrayed with both positive and negative aspects (mainly positive though or no one would care for them) 
- Villains come off as both genuinely threatening while still retaining charm and not being considered too evil 
  • Listening to: Tekken 2 OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Cardcaptor Sakura
  • Playing: Shantae: Half-Genie Hero
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
So believe it or not my original plan for Super Dream Party was to have it all completely done by the end of this year; given the immense scope of the story and all my life responsibilities I was probably foolish to think that. Even still I really want to be able to finally finish this project that I started way back in 2014 and I want to do it right, so here's what's happening. By the end of 2016 I hope to have all the scenes in the story fully fleshed out with only the exact dialogue missing, and alongside that I want to include a timeline of the events that occur and have each and every significant character (heroes, allies, villains, both from the franchises I'm using and my OCs) put at every point with descriptions as to where they are and what they're doing; this sounds like a long and tedious processes but I really want to make sure that everything's consistent and makes sense so I feel like this would really help with that. 

Once that's done, I can finally get to writing out the story in it's entirety. How it will work is this; I won't post any parts of the story until the entire thing is fully finished, and once it is I will designate a week where each day I will post a part of the story. How each part of the story is defined is basically having an individual deviation for each hero and the events they go through in the story (there will be plenty of overlap in events between characters though), and alongside the story parts there will be gameplay parts as well relating to the stages and boss battles throughout that part for each character; I'm not sure whether to have it for each character (making ten deviations a part) or just to have one filled with the info for the stages and bosses for all characters. The story parts will mainly consist of dialogue read out like a script (I'm not writing in the traditional narrative way) and when it gets to the stage or boss battle it will refer back to the deviation(s) for the gameplay regarding that part. How it's meant to be read to get the full flow of the story is to have two tabs up, with one being a character's story part and the other being the gameplay part to refer back to. I'm not sure at this stage how relevant the specific happenings in the stages and boss battles will be to the story, and if they aren't then having the tab for the gameplay part may not be necessary. 

Overall there are four main parts to the story, not including the tutorial and last story. The first part is the introduction where the characters first appear in Arcobaln and have to figure out their situation. The second part takes place a few months later (may be changed) and all the good guys are settled in, and it's when the CSM will also be formed and prompt the heroes to take up missions that can be selected in any order (though the amount of choices for each character differs). After that it will be mostly linear in terms of stage progression again with the third part escalating everything and the fourth part being the climax of the main story. After that the last story will be posted on a Friday and finally put a true end to the story. If I get the tutorial part done fast enough I might actually post it at the beginning of 2017, but this is assuming I've got the planning stage done. 

Boy have I got my work cut out for me, but I'm determined. I've come so far and I've become so dedicated to this project that I wouldn't even care if not a single person acknowledged it in any way. Though I'm not known as a regular uploader, I will say that it will probably be a couple of months before I post any new deviations, but hopefully it will all be worth it in the end. Until then, take care everybody  
  • Listening to: Tekken OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Cardcaptor Sakura
  • Playing: Shovel Knight: Plague of Shadows
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
I'd just like to say that one of my favorite things about Shovel Knight is the writing. I find the humor charming because it's fresh and clean, using clever puns, situational jokes and silly character interactions, and (for the most part) doesn't rely on fourth wall-breaking gags, let alone awkwardly placed memes or references to the games it tries (and succeeds) to emulate. 

The story and how characters interact with each other may be predictable for the established setting and doesn't offer any major twists, but I still get really into it and attached because of how sincere it is and how it manages to keep the characters consistent to their traits, and uses those personalities for entertainment and drama effectively. 

The titular protagonist Shovel Knight may be as standard noble heroic knight as it gets (on par with Jonathan Joestar), but I still love him just because of how well he sticks to his positive attributes such as justice, kindness, politeness and determination, while still having some hilarious moments with some of the characters he talks to and other small things such as falling face first into the ground after being launched from a catapult. 

Plague Knight on the other hand was great in that his own adventure was able to highlight time and time again how wonderfully maniacal, condescending and conceited he was, while still able to show his more vulnerable and caring side. Seeing the way he interacts with the other members of the Order of No Quarter was also interesting because of how it highlighted how serious the rest of them were about the alliance, and (at least so far) have shown that they take their allegiance seriously and making Plague Knight and his motivations stick out further. 

Having an earnest style of writing like this is actually something I want to accomplish in my game ideas, whether it be for the humor, the story or the character interactions. 
  • Listening to: Tekken OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: Cardcaptor Sakura
  • Playing: Shovel Knight: Plague of Shadows
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  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
Not making this an actual post because it's running off assumptions of what the future characters are gonna be like and most of them are stretches anyway;  just thought I'd do this for a small bit of fun. 

~ Neo Overwatch Team ~ 
Tracer 
Winston 
Pharah 

~ Talon Team ~ 
Reaper 
Widowmaker 
Sombra 

~ Mayhem Team ~ 
Junkrat 
Roadhog 
Doomfist 

~ Harmony Team ~ 
Bastion 
Genji 
Zenyatta 

~ Outlaw Team ~ (how did Mei get involved in this?) 
Hanzo 
McCree 
Mei 

~ Seniors Team ~ 
Ana 
Soldier: 76 
Reinhardt 

~ Defense Team ~ 
Torbjörn 
Symmetra 
Zarya 

~ Support Team ~ (idfk) 
Mercy 
Lúcio 
D. Va 
  • Listening to: Hylics OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Guilty Gear Xrd Revelator
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
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So as you guys know my birthday was a few days ago, and I didn't actually ask anyone for anything because I couldn't think of anything I would really want except for a Wii U or PS4 (which would have been asking a bit too much), but my maternal grandparents did end up getting me a Galaxy Tab A. I only just set it up today because I had a couple of assignments due this week, but already it's a godsend for me. It's not particularly fast in terms of Internet speed, tabs have to keep reloading every time I go to another, but in the situation I'm in its fantastic.

Last night I made a poll venting my frustration over my laptop screwing up with DeviantArt (everything else was perfectly fine), and the reason why it was a poll was because that was literally the only thing I could do. Couldn't write comments, status updates or journals, couldn't submit anything, I couldn't even browse stuff or view any notifications! I'm updating my laptop with the most recent update of Windows 10, but I'm not holding my breath, especially with how long it's taking. I'll still be using my laptop for pretty much anything else, but my new Tab is the reason you're all seeing this journal now, and I'm really grateful to my Nan and Pop for getting me this. What's even better is that this actually has an app for Microsoft Word, which is where I've always written up everything I do for DA before pasting it here.

To give some insight into my life, I travel to Uni and occasionally the city on most days, which means I'm on the train and buses a lot; during this time I only have an ipod and phone (never bringing a laptop again out of fear it will break) which have notepad apps that are pretty damn useful for jotting down ideas and notes, but it's not convenient enough to write stuff up like on a laptop. With a Tab however I can write up stuff onto the Word app and then copy and paste onto here whenever I have Internet connection! Thanks to this, there may be a new era of productivity, although ideally I'd like to find a way to import all the documents on my laptop onto this Tab just to make the transition faster.

Either way I'm really glad for this, and I hope to make the best I can out of it. Hopefully by the end of this month I'll have plenty of new stuff to show. Until then, take care everybody <3 
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  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Guilty Gear Xrd Revelator
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
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  • Listening to: Hylics OST
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At some point in the future, once I'm done with the many other projects I have planned, I'd like to do a crossover between Team Fortress 2, Overwatch and Touhou. The roster would have TF2 and OW characters on one side with Touhou characters on the other (seeing as how they have a lot more characters) and will continuously expand with every new character introduced in Overwatch, leading to the inclusion of another character for Touhou; occasionally another character from the TF2 lore will come in as well, though there are only so many and I highly doubt Valve cares enough for TF2 to continue it's lore and introduce more quirky characters. Once again this is very far off, I'm no where near done with Super Dream Party as it is. 
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  • Reading: Romance fanfics
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  • Playing: Guilty Gear Xrd Revelator
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
So I was looking at the sprite sheet for Pac Man from Pac Man 2: The New Adventures, and I would recommend you look at it yourself because a lot of it is just incredible, and while I was looking for a particular walk cycle that I love I ended up coming across a set of sprites that I don't actually know what they're meant to be used for (I've only watched Jerma's brief playthrough of it) but they absolutely cracked my shit up even if it's probably not what I think it is. 

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  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
THE FUTURE IS NOW

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  • Listening to: Hylics OST
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So I actually have a few ideas for unique battle mechanics that would work in a traditional turn-based RPG type game; these concepts would have been incorporated in a Super Dream Party RPG gaiden game that's never gonna happen. 

Basically how it works is kind of based of the Mario & Luigi RPG series on Nintendo Handhelds, where rather than having 'Attack' and 'Magic' options, all moves are treated the same; in the context of what one concept for SDP RPG could have been, this would have included for example Mario having Punch, Jump, Hammer and Fire (he had other moves, but I forgot what they would have been). Magic or Mana would have been used to enhance attacks rather than be required to use them, and would give them buffs such as hitting multiple times, doing more damage, hitting more enemies at once and even inflicting status ailments (e.g. Mario's Fire could inflict a continuously damaging 'Burn' debuff); basically the amount of magic used for a move could be adjusted and they would get more buffs as more magic is spent. Maybe some moves would have a required amount of magic to be able to be used, but that could be optional. 

Another concept would be that the moves that each character would have could not only be used against enemies to help defeat them, but also on allies to help them. To use Mario's Fire as an example once again, he would create a ring of flames around one of his allies that would help reduce or outright nullify Ice damage; the magic system mentioned previously could also be applied here so that effects like giving the entire team protection or converting enemy Fire damage into health for them are possible. This might be weird with some character moves, but the SDP RPG concept wasn't thought through that hard, though I could have tried to be more creative. There would also be team attacks like the Bros. Actions in the M&L series that would mix and match one move from one character with another's in any combination to produce varied effects. 

These are just some concepts that I thought would be interesting, and maybe some time down the line I might use them for myself in some way; though I don't mind if anyone who likes making game ideas would like to try this out for themselves. 
  • Listening to: Hylics OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Hylics
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
So as you all know I got back from my week to Victoria (mainly Colac and Melbourne) a few days ago, and I thought I'd just make this journal entry just to describe how it was; the reason I didn't do so earlier was because I had to catch up on all my DA watch stuff (over 2,500 notifications) and YT videos (i.e. moving like a hundred vids to the watch later playlist) and other stuff like my semester registration. 

To sum it up briefly: it was a fantastic trip. There was a lot of interesting things to see both in the country areas around Colac like the hills, the treetop walk, the old history re-enactment area, the large limestone formations off the beaches known as the Apostles and the waterfall, and in the city of Melbourne with stuff like the museum, the art gallery, the zoo, the aquarium and really great restaurants. The hotels my mother and I stayed at where also pretty good, I caught up on the latest news and watched some pretty good shows. 

Of course the best thing about the trip was undoubtedly me seeing my friend again for the first time in three years for her birthday. To give some context as to just how special she is to me, I've known since I was in high school at 14 years of age, but we only truly became friends in 2011 when all of us had to move from the high school that was closing down to other ones; she was the first person I can remember asking me to hang out with her, and for someone who didn't have any real friendships up to that point it meant a lot to me. Becoming friends with her and eventually gaining plenty of friends on my own really did a lot to help my self-esteem, attitude and outlook on life in general: for those wondering why I watch MLP or have the audacity to mildly associate myself with the fanbase, it's because I value friendship almost above everything else. It got out of hand at first because I made the mistake of developing a serious crush on her (of whom is affirmatively a lesbian) and I still had lots of doubts because of how new I was to this kind of social interaction, but eventually I grew out of it and now I see her as more of a sister figure (probably more than my step-sister). In 2013 she moved to Victoria and I assume plans to stay there indefinitely, and I regularly sent her texts whenever I felt particularly alone and bored just to see how things were hanging. 

Then this year at around the time my semester was finishing (or already had finished, I can't remember) she finally sends me a message after a fairly long while (not that I minded, everyone's got their own business) telling me that she's just been spending the past couple of days getting herself together after attending her older sister's funeral. I didn't know her sister personally, but as someone who had also lost their older sibling (though not in the same way) it definitely hit me hard, especially with how hard it would be for her. She herself told me that out of most of her friends that I understood how she was feeling the best; she's also noted before that we have plenty in common not just in personality but also with life events such as how our parents are split up or having half-brothers that we barely know of, and this latest event in her life effectively gives us our most tragic similarity. I did all I could to make sure she was coping well while making sure to give her space to recover on her own. She texted me more frequently since then, initiating more conversations herself rather than me doing it. Then she tells me that her birthday is coming up and asks if I wanted to come visit her; I can't remember why exactly (maybe awkwardness or nervousness) but I hesitated at first, but my mother convinced me to go through with it, and I'm glad she did. 

Seeing her for the first time in such a long time was really great, and she and my mum also got along really well which is always good; she looked almost the same as she did before she left, but she did seem to develop a more heavily Australian accent, which contrasts with my inexplicably American sounding accent (I've never been to America). I also got to meet her girlfriend from Vietnam for the first time, it was a bit awkward at first (especially given she's had less pleasant experiences with men in the past), but we got along fine in the end which is good. As for the party itself, I very much had a good time. Admittedly I was never really good with parties or similar social gatherings like with my family; I'm not that talkative and there's not much for me to do, and sometimes after being at a good friends party I feel anxious and have self-doubts again for some reason. This time however I really did enjoy myself. There was some great campfires, I met plenty of interesting people there who legitimately seemed to respect me and come to like me (it helped that I was the only one there who was her friend from high school) for either my connection with her or my occupations, and I also had three bottles of Swedish cider with me; it was probably the first time I'd drunk anything this year, and for that matter the most I've ever drunk at once, and I felt it. My friend did have some moments where she had to get away from the large crowds just to recover herself (understandable given what had happened to her), but she managed to get better as the night went on. I had a lot of fun, great food and drinks, though by the time it was midnight I was less sociable and eventually just went to bed because I felt tired; it was freezing in the morning I tell you what. 

The last time I saw her after that before heading back was at the zoo with my mother and I, and it was a great time. It's a bit of a shame that I couldn't have hung out with her more, but for the time that I did spend with her it was more than worth the two uncomfortable plane trips. More than anything this trip reminded me of how important it is to reconnect with friends in the past; times change, people do as well, but I really do think it's worth it to send your old friends a message, maybe even ask to hang out with them some time, it could be really good for you. 

So now that all of that's been said, I'm just end off saying that I intend to get back to working on Super Dream Party and hopefully having something done by the end of this month; after all the gameplay stuff is done I'm gonna take a break to start on a new-ish project entirely and then once I'm done with that I'll get to the main meat of SDP, the story. Until then, take care everybody <3 
  • Listening to: Pokken Tournament OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Soul Calibur 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
Hey everyone, in about 7 hours I'm gonna be leaving to Melbourne to see one of my first and closest friends I've ever made (when I was about 16, which is kind of sad) whom I haven't seen in three years. It will also be the first time I've traveled anywhere since I got back from England (with a quick stop at Singapore) all the way in 2013. I know I'm not the most active poster (apart from shitposts that I steal from Tumblr) so you won't really notice much of a difference, but for about a week I probably won't be active on this site; I can probably access the internet on my phone and iPod, but I can't log into my account for either of those I think. I won't say goodbye just yet because I still have a couple of hours, but I will miss being on here, and even though most of you guys aren't as close to me as I am with the friend I'm visiting, I am gonna miss you for that week. 
  • Listening to: Tekken 2: Strike Arranges OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Soul Calibur 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
I am really excited for this game. I've been following the progress of the team very closely (and the perks of being a backer allow me to get lots of good behind the scenes) and every update and new thing they show off gets me more and more hyped. The animations, the cool particle effects their messing with, the simplistic yet cool mechanics, the music and all the potential ideas for this new IP are all just really rad. It also helps that the fanbase (at least from what I've seen so far) is actually really well mannered and supportive of each other while not being afraid to voice their opinions in civil ways. Every now and then the team will do a stream where they show off the latest progress they've made, and the latest one as of now which is now up on Youtube for all to see is something I would implore you all to see if you're into fighting games or cute animals. It does a good job of covering all the progress for each character so far, what they're capable of, some really cool new additions to the character movesets and finally ending with the reveal of Tianhuo's theme, which like many other Chinese fighting game characters is very well done. Take a look if you have the time: 
  • Listening to: Tekken 2: Strike Arranges OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Soul Calibur 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
Not too long ago I just posted some random pics I found on Tumblr, meanwhile there are several people in the world grieving over the loss of many in the recent Orlando shooting. There's been a lot of tragedies such as the deaths of celebrities and other mass losses of life in the past many months, and I'm aware of all of it and it does affect me. This one in particular being a homophobic strike hurts me not just because I'm pansexual myself, but also because two of my closest friends are lesbians, one of whom has already been going through a tough time with the death of their sister. I almost never say anything about events like this unless it's a comment on someone else's journal or status, and I don't mean to look like I'm trying to ignore those things. Honestly I just don't have anything to add that hasn't been said by everyone else, and I'd rather not think too much or for too long on all the bad things that happen in the world because I'm just gonna stress myself out and it's not gonna do any good for me. I don't cope with horrible things happening to people that well, so I just try to continue with my own life and remind myself that there still are many good things in the world, and that I have to play my part in making it a better place for anyone I can help, even if only just a little bit. 
  • Listening to: Sonic Before The Sequel OST
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Soul Calibur 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
So I came across a video on the Tumblr page of that guy that used to make the really popular and strange TF2 Gmod videos, and hearing the astounded reactions of what I can only assume was a non-Australian streamer made me realize how mysterious my country must be to some people, especially folks on this site including friends from all the way in the Americas. So I decided to show that same video in order to give you all an accurate representation of my good ol' nation. Enjoy mates!! 

  • Listening to: Arashi no Saxophone 2
  • Reading: Romance fanfics
  • Watching: YouTube
  • Playing: Team Fortress 2
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola